Secrets At Home – Chapter 2

THE KISSOur kiss was warm, loving and full of lust. Since this was the first time our tongues met, they were excitedly exploring each other. For a moment we were completely controlled by the magic of the moment, and nothing in our minds reminded us that we were supposed to have a parent-child relationship.However, the reality couldn’t be completely washed away and soon it hit us again. We broke the kiss and she jumped down from my lap.The feeling of shock and regret washed over us.”I’m so sorry, I don’t know what…” Alexina apologized, looking panicked.”No, no… It was my fault…really,” I said, but I think I felt as confused as she did.”It just, somehow… I really don’t know.””Forget about it. We just…”It was very awkward. I don’t know how long we spent starting sentences that didn’t lead anywhere. Fortunately, a phone suddenly started to ring and interrupted us. It felt like salvation at that moment.The phone call was from the hospital. They had operated my father and everything had gone well. He was now in the recovery room, but he was expected to wake up soon. I could visit him then.After the phone call, I told the news to Alexina. She changed and came with me to see my father. We acted as though nothing strange had happened between us. While I was driving to the hospital, we only talked about my old man. Of course, he was the main issue of that day, but I also felt that she wanted to focus on him for not needing to talk about our kiss.————————————————————————————————–My father recuperated quite quickly, considering his age. But he is not relevant in this story and there’s not much more to tell about him.The kiss that happened between me and Alexina was swept under the carpet. We didn’t talk about it and we kept acting as if nothing had ever happened. From outside it would have looked like it wasn’t bothering us at all, but I’m sure we both kept thinking about it. At least I did. SMALL CONFESSIONSMany months later we were spending an evening alone at home. My wife Elise was at some seminar in another town and was probably going to stay in a hotel.It was a Friday evening and I was relaxing on the sofa with a glass of whiskey. Soon I got company.”Mind if I join you?” Alexina asked in a soft voice, and smiled.She looked especially almanbahis şikayet good tonight. She was wearing an elegant black dress with black opaque tights and high heels. She was also wearing a bit stronger makeup than usual. She looked like she was ready for a party, but I was sure she was not going anywhere.”Sure, go ahead,” I said, and made some space for her on the sofa.She was holding a glass of red wine in her hand. I don’t know if she had taken the wine from the kitchen or if it was some of her own. In either case, it was fine and she knew it. It was true that she was not yet of legal age to drink alcohol, but I was not so naive that I’d be thinking that she didn’t drink in the past. Most of the teens did.She sat down next to me and took a sip of her wine. There was something very adult-like in her tonight. For a moment we only smiled at each other warmly, before starting any conversation.”Do you like that Elise is maybe not coming home tonight?” she asked. She didn’t like to call her ‘mom’. I was called dad, and her mother was Elise. Go figure.”You want me to be honest?” I chuckled.”Don’t worry. I feel the same, that’s why I asked,” she said, “it’s just always good to be alone with you.” She was sitting on her knees, facing me.”Yeah, we have better ambience when it’s only two of us, don’t you think?”She nodded, looking as she was pondering something. “It’s not going very well between you two, right?” she asked.”Right,” I admitted.”I think it’s more her fault than yours,” she said, and played with her hair.”No, such things are not really anybody’s fault I think,” I said, “it’s hard to make any relationship work.””But I know she can be such a bitch sometimes,” she said.I couldn’t keep from laughing. Alexina didn’t normally use those kinds of words, neither did she normally talk bad about people. But this statement came out like it was straight from her heart.”Yeah, your mother can be very complicated sometimes,” I admitted.”How’s the sex with her?” she asked, and the question caught me without a warning.”What?” I chuckled, “what do you mean by that?””I mean do you do guys even have sex together anymore?”She was smirking playfully, but I could see that she also really wanted to know.”Well, honey…,” I was pondering what to say. “How should I put it…””That the last time almanbahis canlı casino you had any sex with her was when Pluto was still a planet?”I laughed and realized that the glass of wine she was having now was probably not her first tonight. “Something like that, yes,” I admitted.”Don’t you ever feel like you need it?” she asked, and somehow seemed a bit shy while asking that.”Of course,” I said without feeling any shame, “I’m a human being, I have my needs.””But you have never cheated on her?”She was very nosy this night and I didn’t know why. “Well, I kissed you, didn’t I?” I said. There you go. I had placed our little taboo on the table. I didn’t actually plan to say it, but it just came out of me.”That doesn’t count,” she said quickly. A bit too quickly; I could see my comment had made her slightly nervous.”That was only because…because…,” she tried to look for an explanation which would make the whole kiss thing sound more innocent than what it was. This time, I didn’t run to help her find some kind of innocent reason for our kiss. I wanted to see where she would go with this.”Because you hadn’t had sex in a very long time and…”Oops. She realized after she already started that now it sounded even less innocent. Probably truthful, but less innocent nevertheless. Me kissing her for wanting sex was far from an innocent explanation.”Wait…,” she said, and obviously some other idea had just popped into her mind, “did you kiss me only because my mother had kept you so unsatisfied and you just wanted to do it with someone, no matter who? So is that why you kissed me?”Very nice. She used a dirty trick to squirm away from this subject. She turned it into a weapon and stroke me by it. She was smirking playfully and it didn’t look like she was serious, but I knew she was not completely joking either.”That’s not right,” I defended myself.”So tell me, why did you kiss me, then?”I was wrong; she didn’t try to avoid the subject after all. Actually, it looked like she wanted to go right towards it and get it straight.”Hey, I’m not sure if it was me who kissed you and not the other way around,” I said. Now I was the one who tried to squirm away. I felt a bit like a coward for doing so.”And if it was you, then what would be your excuse?” I continued, “maybe it was you who was unsatisfied. almanbahis casino Maybe it’s you who has a boyfriend who hadn’t done his job, so you just wanted someone, no matter who?””First of all, I don’t have a boyfriend. I have never had,” she answered, “and second, I’m still completely a virgin, so I wouldn’t even know what it means to be satisfied by someone.””Oh,” I was able to say. I felt slightly shocked for the sudden knowledge of all that, mainly because I was surprised that she told me those things without any hesitation.”But that’s not a bad thing,” I said finally.”I didn’t say it was,” she said, looking at me with a smart-ass expression on her face, “I haven’t been able to get the right kind of man and meanwhile I don’t want to waste my time with the wrong ones.””That’s admirably determined”, I said and I was very serious about it.”Indeed it is,” she said, “so would you now really tell me why you kissed me?”I was quiet for a moment and pondered my answer, watching her. She looked so good. I felt like this night she tried hard to be older than she was, and there was something very sexy in that.”I kissed you because I wanted,” I replied. It was a simple answer and still much bigger than any other answer. Besides, it was the truth.”Because you wanted me?” she asked. She didn’t ask her question to tease me or to play with me. She looked serious.”Yes,” I answered shortly, looking her deep into her eyes.”Good,” she said having a slight blush in her cheeks, “me too…”For a small moment, we sat there in silence and just looked at each other. It seemed that we both were just processing this new information; we wanted each other. The taboo had become a confession.”Maybe we…” I started but I got interrupted by the noise of the keys opening the lock of the main door. Elise was coming home after all.I could see a slight panic rising in Alexina’s eyes when she slipped into the bathroom. I could hear how she turned on the shower. Her wine glass was left on the table.Elise walked into the living room. “Hi,” she said, and noticed the whiskey glass in my hand and almost empty wine glass on the table, “you should get a beer as well, I think you don’t have enough variety yet.””No, I had a secret lover in here and the wine was for her”, I replied.”Sure you had,” she said, I don’t know if she couldn’t believe that I could have a lover, or she just simply didn’t care.”Where’s Alex?” she asked after noticing the door to her child’s room was open, but she couldn’t see “the boy” anywhere.”In the shower,” I answered, and took a sip of my whiskey.”Okay,” she said.